I did what you suggested... I just wish so desperately I would get a straightforward answer.
I'm exhausted but there's no way I could sleep right now, I'm too tired, if that's possible.
Everything is kind of blurry and I can't really breathe and my eyes are so swollen I can barely see out of them. At least Mom hugged me when she saw me. They understand. They know I'm not just being dramatic. But wow, it just feels so impossible.
71 days. I am so tired of this. The word "forever" just keeps sounding better and better.