Weight.

it frustrates me. it increases. it decreases. i feel like it's going to be okay. and then i feel gross. will i forever be this person?

yesterday was me and drew's 10 month (: we rented lots of movies and ate junk food. we had these fancy cookie sticks and we pretended we were fancy estate owners and had just imported fancy cuban cigars. we are quite the pair.

things should be all set for Tennessee. (:


work at 4, babysitting at 7:30, and then lots of sleep. hopefully lots of diet pepsi as well. i need all the help i can get.


i miss you.

In Other News.

I love him. (:

i really do.

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i've never felt this way before. it physically hurts me sometimes and makes me crinkle my eyebrows and just hold on to him. it makes me feel like flying sometimes. like i own the world and nothing i do could possibly fail. it makes me nervous, makes me smile, makes me cry, makes me skip and jump around like a little girl. he completely owns my heart.

Hopefully every entry from now on will not be like that. (: But that's what's going on lately. In addition...

* Interesting work relationships. It's funny how things change.

* Getting things set for Tennessee and college. Life is making nervous... it will never be the same again. And I think that's okay.

* Extreme Midget Wrestling... yes. I went to that last night. And it was the greatest thing ever. My baby and I ordered tickets online, went to this trashy club in a shady part of town, and got crazy dumb bracelets at the door. And watched midgets wrestle. If you ever get the chance... GO. It was so amazingly hilarious. (:

* I'm trying to plan something cute for me and Drew's 10 month on Monday. We'll see how that goes, I guess. I love him. I really do. (:

I Will Dance, I Will Sing.

i am officially a moment ruiner.

drew: elyse... you are completely gorgeous. i think your body is absolutely beautiful.

me: are you sure you're not gay?

i had a dream it was our wedding day and i found him in the shower with my brother. great start to a great day.

summer is apparently "officially" starting, as i had my first day at "work" today. it was awful, but go figure. i made some friends, and i have a lot of old ones there already, so i think it'll be a good year.

last night i ate out at Giovanni's, which was delicious, and then watched Kung Fu Panda with my friends. (: now i'm sitting at Borders, knitting and drinking iced tea. some days truly feed my soul.

i will dance, i will sing

to be mad for my king

nothing, Lord, is hindering

this passion in my soul.

thank you for today. (: Amen.