Nashville.

I feel like maybe this will be the perfect thing. (:

we got here safely, around 3 p.m., organized our charts of things to do while we're here, and took a glorious nappy. We're in the process (I'm obviously waiting my turn) of taking showers before we go to a comedy club. I love my friends and I love the way this trip makes me feel.

My gang of friends is the kind of gang I was always jealous of. (: I'm excited to do all sorts of wonderful this week. we're 4 crazy teenagers, after all (3 technically). (:

I guess I will keep this updated, as that is the meaning I started it.

Seems pretty dumb, as only one person reads it... and she's one room away from me. Whatever.

Outside My Window.

happy fourth of july (:

i'm not sure what else to say other than this morning was a huge letdown.

i went to say goodbye, and i couldn't find him anywhere. i drove around looking for two hours. and went home feeling defeated.

in other news... last night i went downtown, where the cherry festival is (: with caitlin, got fazzoli's, ran to borders to grab a shake from byron, went scooting through walmart with no purpose, and swung home to pick up the crew to go to the beach bum's game. (: ran into a lot of friends there, and talked to mom. it was nice.

now there is a fourth of july party/the annual luau on our beach. it always starts ridiculously early, and lasts ridiculously long. but it's fun, i suppose. lots of booze, and lots of loud music.

today should be pretty great. besides this morning, which ended up not being a complete waste of time (see lower), today has been very relaxing and the weather is beautiful.

here is the hidden gem i found during my great search this morning:

i think i would enjoy just wandering. laying in the grass. preferably in my underwear. i love beautiful things. (:

so long for now, my dears. xoxo,

elyse.

I Will Dance, I Will Sing.

i am officially a moment ruiner.

drew: elyse... you are completely gorgeous. i think your body is absolutely beautiful.

me: are you sure you're not gay?

i had a dream it was our wedding day and i found him in the shower with my brother. great start to a great day.

summer is apparently "officially" starting, as i had my first day at "work" today. it was awful, but go figure. i made some friends, and i have a lot of old ones there already, so i think it'll be a good year.

last night i ate out at Giovanni's, which was delicious, and then watched Kung Fu Panda with my friends. (: now i'm sitting at Borders, knitting and drinking iced tea. some days truly feed my soul.

i will dance, i will sing

to be mad for my king

nothing, Lord, is hindering

this passion in my soul.

thank you for today. (: Amen.

Sitting at Borders.

here

I don't have a ton of time, but I figured I owe it to you to update.

I ran into him and it was actually okay. I'm still alive.

I was worried about having a boyfriend in the summer because I'm a big "looking for a love interest" person, but I love having Drew here and having him understand everything.

In the past 4 days, I've:

* taken 3 trips to borders

* squished 5 people into a photo booth

* lost my phone

* kissed in the rain (FINALLY)

* seen Toy Story 3

* been informed there is a mouse in my cabin

* found a topless bar I never knew existed

it's looking like it's going to be a pretty decent summer. (: last night it occurred to me I actually might have a legitimate group of friends this year. So far, it's looking like it will be me, Kallen, Caitlin, Dylan, Drew, and maybe James (: Oh, I enjoy life some days.

here

however, i feel like things would be better if i looked like this girl. she's cute.

PS: i got an amazing bicycle yesterday. it's one i've wanted for a long time, and i finally found the exact one i want. (: maybe i'll get a picture for you guys later. in the meantime, stay sweet. (:

These Pills.

Pirates of The Caribbean is on the t.v.
it reminds me of high school.
am i ready for this?

i have a favourite mug.
every time i use it, i am reminded of the day i bought it. sitting outside a bakery on a beautiful summer day, eating pie and drinking coffee with my family. i am also reminded of the electric green van that drove by, and the picture message i sent to my close friend, who had a deep obsession with anything green. i am reminded of the times she, along with 5 of my other close friends, used to come over for random crazy parties. i remember feeling cute, and skinny, and alive.

The other day, I accidentally sat on my favorite sunglasses. They were black and heart shaped. Immature, I know, but so fun to wear. At the mall yesterday, I was determined to find a new pair. I don't last long without sunglasses. I finally found a pair I could live with, but they are so plain. They have rounded rectangular lenses, and a cheetah print frame. They're cute... but they can never measure up to my heart shapes. As I was complaining to my best friend, she said something that changed my view on everything: " it's a new era."

am i really the only one who feels like life is falling flat of my expectations for it?