things never turn out the way i expect them to.
i never expected that college would be this lonely on the weekends.
i never expected that i'd be scared of people reading my blog.
i never expected that i'd kind of sort of be told i'm going to hell. highlight of my night, let me tell you what.
i never expected that i'd still be disappointing, this far away.
or maybe i just never realized.
that by thinking these things... i absolutely might be headed for hell.
that making friends... is a concept i've hardly ever experienced.that journaling... might end up saving my life after all.
i don't like being dramatic. but i'm begging you to ask.